Is it Angst or Fear? Either way it sucks!

This week the turmoil of possiblity and reality has taken its toll. Dreams of alternative forms of community, and communal spaces, heighten my intrests and creative juices. However, time, resources, and ability raise questions as to probable possibility. But, does authentic faith confront fear? I am stuck with the notion that the vision of Jesus needs further exploration in alternative environments, and wonder if I can be a pioneer in this movement. My angst longs for paradigmatic change more than a familiarity in a different locale. So I am stuck...I suffer from angst that might not be relieved in the familiar, but I fear that radical change is so divergent that the unchartered territory might destroy my faith. Either way I know I will have to choose a path and pray it is the leading of God and not reationary to my fear and angst.